Self-Doubt and an Active Imagination

I’m sitting at the airport, waiting for my first of 3 flights to get to Ranquitte. This is my third trip to Ranquitte, but my first time working on projects exclusive to Ropa. My first trip, I was nervous about what to expect and how I would handle a place that seemed so foreign. My second trip, I had only been a RN for a few months, and was concerned I’d be too inexperienced to help. This trip, I was feeling pretty good until I went through all the ways that I could get nothing done. I’ve created a nightmare scenario in my head, that would result in 7 days of NOTHING being accomplished. It starts like this… I’m waiting at the airport in Cap Haitien for my ride to come get me, but they forget me until the next day. That’s 1 day gone. Day 2, I try to visit nursing schools in Cap Haitien, but it turns out to be a national holiday so the schools are ghost towns. Days 3-5 is when things get really bad. Day 3, I head to Hinche to check out a hospital and nursing school, but we get lost during a storm/bee swarm, and get stuck in quicksand for 2 days. Thankfully, the locals bring us food and water, but there’s not much we can do to get out of of the quicksand, until it dries out enough for us to claw and scrape our way to Ranquitte. Day 6, I fall off a motorcycle and nobody notices, so I lie on the side of the road with a mild concussion until evening, when I head back to the house to lick my wounds. Day 7, I visit some of the homes we’ve built, but when I attempt to photograph the homes and families, I realize I never brought the camera battery. So, as you can see, a lot can go wrong during the 7 day trip, even if its entirely dependent on my imagination.

After seeing my irrational fears typed out before me, it all seems a bit ludicrous that I’m concerned about the worst happening. I think it actually stems from the fact that all of us at Ropa, care deeply for the causes we take on. If I don’t accomplish anything on a 7 day trip, the community we work with loses out, and that’s completely unacceptable. So, it turns out the only acceptable outcome is to succeed. Sure, we’ll hit some bumps in the road (or even some quicksand), but with the help of our Haitian friends, we’ll get it done. Hell, we might even have fun while we’re working

Thanks for reading, and keep posted for updates from the trip.


1 comment for “Self-Doubt and an Active Imagination

  1. Juliana Campbell
    09.22.14 at 23:59

    The world needs more people like you, Josh, willing to “walk the walk,” active imagination and all! What you do MATTERS!

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